What Comes After the End

Sometimes I think it might have worked out if only I’d tried,
Just a little bit harder to stay by your side,
Or that maybe you left because of something I said-
That maybe you’d still be here if I’d done something else instead.

I try to forget you but my mind won’t let me be,
Every night in my dreams-it’s your face I see,
I’ve tried feeling guilty and tried feeling sad…
Tried becoming bitter or unforgivably mad,
But no matter what I try or do,
The truth is that I’ve still got these feelings for you.

And I can’t hate you nor blame myself-
I can do nothing except mourn our past on this shelf,
The memories covered with a thin veil of dust,
They’re the only things that cruel fate’s left of us.

Maybe it’d be easier if you’d left in anger,
But you walked sadly out with the lost look of a stranger,
Your eyes were filled with tears and you had nothing to say,
There were no heated words-just an “I’m sorry…”-as you walked away,
I remember this all and somehow I know,
That deep down inside you didn’t want to go.

And I know it’s only foolish wishing of mine,
But just maybe we’ll return to each other in time.
You’ll escape your demons that made you leave and’ll return,
And this whole awful time apart we can burn,
We could truly be together and make it work the second time around,
Sailing our ship without running aground.

Yet dreams are dreams and I can have them forever,
When will they come true-it’s probably never.
We separated not by force but by a misunderstanding choice,
Now you’re gone and all I have is the memory of your face and your voice.

I guess this is what happens to people after The End,
This is how it feels to lose both a love and a friend.
But whether this was all results of fate or circumstance,
Past the pain I’m still glad that we had a chance,
Because even though in the end we lost it all somehow,
I guess I’m just grateful for the memories now.